I'm happy you're happy.
I think I'm finally realizing I'm never really going to be the "girlfriend type" of girl. I'm always guys best friends. the girl they go to for girl advice for the girl they like, which is NEVER me. I have let you go so many times. okay just twice. but why does it always have to be people i'm friends with? the first time was my BEST FREAKIN FRIEND. you lead me on. you made me think you waanted to be with me. you asked me to go with you to prom. and then you took it all back. then you guys broke up. i held your hand through everything. you lead me on again. we talk all the time. then bam i see you this weekend and you tell me you want advice for another one of my friends you want to be with.
i know as the girl who has always secretly liked you i should want whatever makes you happy. but since you know i like you, why do you lead me on adn then go and find something better? i understand you can find someone prettier, skinner, smarter, i realize all of this. but just once i'd like to be that girl. just once. so stop playing with me adn leave me alone.
Sunday, October 23, 2011
Thursday, October 6, 2011
What am I doing?
I'm freaking out. I feel as though I do this a lot lately, but I'm seriously freaking out.
I am the type of person that has schedules planned, planners filled out, homework done early, appointments scheduled, just everything ready to go and done before needed. Right now, all I can think about is how I'm getting my homework done like the night before, how I don't know where I'm going to live next year, and hell, if I'm even going to be in school next semester.
If I don't make it into the college of education in 8 days, I will have to drop out for a semester. I refuse to change my major and I don't want to pay money I DON'T have to take bullshit classes that I won't ever use for a semester.
I need a place to live next semester. My two best friends at whitewater are leaving, one for a better school and one to study abroad to get a life experience. So I don't know what I'm going to do. I mean I know people that want to live with me, but it's seriously scaring the poop out of me.
On top of all of my necessary stressing, I"M SO SICK OF PEOPLE TELLING ME I"M A SHITTY HOUSE PRESIDENT. I am trying my freaking hardest people and if that isn't good enough for you, ask me to step down or leave. I am taking 18 credits, working 10 hours a week, I'm in two different orgs besides Alpha and I"m house president. I know that I took on too much, but shoot me. I'm trying to be a good sister and I'm trying to get a head start on my career and life. It's not my fault people can't clean up their shit after they have an event at a house they don't' even live at. The women of this house do not need to clean up after you time after time. That is not why they live there.
I am so sorry I ranted, but I'm going to be honest and tell you that I feel a lot better. Which is weird because I"m not even ranting to anyone.
I am the type of person that has schedules planned, planners filled out, homework done early, appointments scheduled, just everything ready to go and done before needed. Right now, all I can think about is how I'm getting my homework done like the night before, how I don't know where I'm going to live next year, and hell, if I'm even going to be in school next semester.
If I don't make it into the college of education in 8 days, I will have to drop out for a semester. I refuse to change my major and I don't want to pay money I DON'T have to take bullshit classes that I won't ever use for a semester.
I need a place to live next semester. My two best friends at whitewater are leaving, one for a better school and one to study abroad to get a life experience. So I don't know what I'm going to do. I mean I know people that want to live with me, but it's seriously scaring the poop out of me.
On top of all of my necessary stressing, I"M SO SICK OF PEOPLE TELLING ME I"M A SHITTY HOUSE PRESIDENT. I am trying my freaking hardest people and if that isn't good enough for you, ask me to step down or leave. I am taking 18 credits, working 10 hours a week, I'm in two different orgs besides Alpha and I"m house president. I know that I took on too much, but shoot me. I'm trying to be a good sister and I'm trying to get a head start on my career and life. It's not my fault people can't clean up their shit after they have an event at a house they don't' even live at. The women of this house do not need to clean up after you time after time. That is not why they live there.
I am so sorry I ranted, but I'm going to be honest and tell you that I feel a lot better. Which is weird because I"m not even ranting to anyone.
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