My life feels so out of sorts lately. For some unknown reason I feel like I'm standing still and everyone else is moving forward. I can't keep up in classes, I'm sick of people saying I have an easy major, and everyone around me seems so ungodly happy that it kills me.
My new job is wonderful, but everyone sees me as a child instead of an adult that they can work with. I'm just a kid who got hired by her mommy. cool. thanks. I have my own talents you know. On top of this, I am watching so many people be or find a relationship that makes them happy. For once I wish I was pretty enough for a guy to want to spend more time with me and be with me. I watch everyone have guys, multiple some times, throw themselves at girls and I sit here and watch. I feel like in a certain situation, I'm watching my own heart be pulled out again. On one had, I'm happy for them, on the other, it hurts like you can't believe.
My computer crashed and I lost everything, and yes, this is the second time this semester. I don't have money to get a new computer so I spent like 5 straight hours trying to complete this project I had due. I shut down my computer for the night and what does it do? deletes all of my documents, again. Professors don't care because they think your lying and my parents can't help because they are going through a lot right now too.
To add a cherry to the top, I'm becoming sick again. My anemia is through the roof and if I dip any lower I don't know what's going to happen. I'm getting sinus infections again, which is the first sign for another surgery, which honestly, I might turn down. I'm sick of them and they only work for like a year.
I hope life picks up this summer. I could really use a break, as I'm sure many people could.
